This morning, a lil mini-documentary about my eating disorder, and recovery aired on Barcroft TV, and what a unique moment in life.
There’s always something to note (like LOLZ on all the “looking into the distance” shots or HEY check out some of the laughable YouTube comments), but I’ll keep it simple.
A reminder today that:
Eating disorders come in all shapes and sizes. My story is common because I am a white, small, cisgender female who grew up engulfed by “diet and beauty” culture, and the insecurity and expectation that it breeds. That is not to be ignored, but there are millions out there who do not have the same background. Men, women, ethnicities, nationalities, class. I am not the sole representation of what an eating disorder looks like, and will never pretend that I could be or am.
You will never be “sick enough.” You deserve help, no matter your circumstances, religion, shame, or weight.
I had a strong support system when I went to treatment. Most don’t (or they do) and it still means that sometimes they go back to rehab a few times before they get their shit straight. I am still working on what that means in my own life.
Recovery is ever-changing, ever-evolving. That’s why it’s flexible.
It is okay to live with an eating disorder. Recovery is accepting its presence in your life, not ignoring it as “fixed.”
Thank you to my best friend Kim Dyer for being in this, and Kristina Doelling for watching it from her apt in Brooklyn. Thank you to my parents Joanna Byers Hall for putting themselves out there, and being vulnerable to millions as parents of someone with an eating disorder. Thank you to The Renfrew Center for inclusion in the documentary, and taking time out of their lives to participate. Thank you to the camera crew and the producer for not making this salacious. Thank you Bradley’s parents for raising a beautiful child. His life has been the inspiration for so much of my recovery. Shout out to my partner for helping me get through that day, and waking up at 6am.
I am feeling many things, as one does when they see their sniffling face on film. Mostly, I am grateful for the life I have led – in all its ups and downs and side doors and mirrors.
5 thoughts on “My Eating Disorder Documentary Went Live This Morning!”
I too am 6 years recovered but struggle. How did you begin blogging? i’d love to be able to help others.
This was awesome.
Thank ya, ya lovely human <3
I have a girlfriend who is now in rehab for an eating disorder I try and be there for her and we seem too wine up fighting and out hurts me because all i want is to be there for her and don’t know how to be because I don’t want to trigger her into not eating I know allot about drug treatment because I was addicted to drugs and I know it’s not the same but also is in away I would love some advice if you have any I have a Facebook page but have no ideas on what my email is my name is Chris Howard from Lawrence mass I know it’s not much to go on but hope to hear from you I hope that’s the right email
So VERY proud of you Linds. This was good yet hard to watch. Keep on taking care of yourself and the many who follow your blog. We love you.
Jeanne & Rod