Introducing ‘Food for Thought: Eating Disorder News You Should Know About’

Hi everybody!

I’ve started to write about eating disorders again on my SubStack platform so it reminded me to scoot on over to my very dormant blog and post again about the shift from here to SubStack.

In the very big likelihood that you don’t remember me. My name is Lindsey and I’m the author behind this blog about eating disorders, recovery and treatment which had a nice following from 2014-2020 … and then I bought a van, went freelance, ran about the world and honestly just stopped posting all together.

As so it goes.

Hopefully, some of you have been following along on my recovery Instagram, but for those of you who haven’t but still have any interest in reading/relating/sharing in my writing, I’m announcing again that I have moved on over to SubStack and I’d love for you to subscribe.

Free, paid, give a donation, I don’t care how you come but please join me in that community. (We’re already up to almost 400 followers and 350 subscribers!)

As part of the SubStack work I’ve launched a bi-weekly newsletter called ‘Food for Thought: Eating Disorder News You Should Know About

Moving forward, twice a month (bi-monthly) I plan to compile all the badass media that my eating disorder clients are included in — as well as articles I just find interesting and nuanced — and send them your way so you can stay informed.

That looks a bit like this:

  • THIS Huffington Post article by Ashley Broadwater on “The ‘Body Roundness Index’ Is Touted As The New BMI — And It’s Got A Big Problem”
    • Stemming from this recent New York Times article on “Time to Say Goodbye to the B.M.I.?” which speaks to how the Body Roundness Index” “BRI” has potentially become a keen replacement to the bullsh*t which is currently the Body Mass Index “BMI”.
    • In response to that article, the media has gone BANANAS with coverage. And in the linked Huffington Post article above, Ashley dutifully lays out how BMI has been criticized for oversimplifying health by focusing only on weight and height, while the newer Body Roundness Index “BRI” tries to add more data points, like waist and hip measurements, but still faces similar issues. Experts at Eating Recovery Center and Project HEAL and other eating disorder sources argue that both BMI and BRI are flawed, stigmatizing, and fail to consider the bigger picture, such as genetics, social factors, and overall health markers.
      • P.S. Don’t believe that the BMI is one big fat lie? (like how that rhymes?) Check out the following article on why BMI sucks, by Serena Nangia. And this Women’s Health article too, detailing the long, racist history of the Body Mass Index, written by Adele Jackson-Gibson.
  • Here’s a little “not too surprising” eating disorder research published on Nature via researchers King, J.A., Bernardoni, F., and Westbrook, A on ‘“Exaggerated frontoparietal control over cognitive effort-based decision-making in young women with anorexia nervosa
    • This study in all its big words basically explored how young women with anorexia approach tasks that require effort, like restricting food intake or excessive exercise. Unlike most people who tend to avoid this kinda thing, individuals with AN seem to invest a lot of energy into these behaviors (ya don’t say?), even when they aren’t rewarding.
    • The researchers used brain scans to examine how these individuals make decisions about effort and rewards. They found that while people with Anorexia didn’t perceive effort as less costly than others, they showed increased brain activity linked to control during decision-making. This suggests that struggle with food and exercise is tied to an intense drive for control, rather than a lack of motivation.
    • For someone with an eating disorder, understanding this can highlight the importance of addressing these control issues in therapy, aiming to redirect that energy towards healthier goals and behaviors.
  • This Fortune article that I just can’t get out of my mind from August on “1 in 10 women are delaying motherhood because of disordered eating” by reporter Alexa Mikhail(side note: pls work with me Alexa, one day pls!)
    • Maybe it’s ‘cause I just went through egg freezing and a break up in which I thought I’d be preggo by now … but this one got to me as someone in recovery!
    • A survey from Equip, a virtual eating disorder treatment platform, revealed that 1 in 10 women are delaying trying to conceive due to disordered eating. Nearly a third feared how pregnancy will affect their bodies, with many feeling anxious about body changes and societal pressures. The survey, which included 700 women with a history of eating disorders or disordered eating, found that 61% struggled to nourish themselves during pregnancy. The findings also highlighted that nearly 50% of women with these conditions experienced infertility, much higher than the national average of 11% (ugh). This issue, as so many, remains under-researched and often goes unspoken, as many women fear disclosing their struggles to healthcare providers. Let’s change that.
  • Next up on the list is this week’s Women’s Health article on “Disordered Eating Vs. Eating Disorders: Experts Explain The Differences And When To Seek Help” by the fabulous Olivia Luppino
    • This one’s for all of you out there who know your eating is off but can’t put your finger just on why … or think to yourself “wellllll, it’s not as bad as X or X. I don’t do X behavior, so I’m fine.” (yes, I see you. I was once you.)
    • This article lays out some ways you can differentiate just what exactly is going on with your eating.
      • Frequency and criteria: Experts at Eating Recovery Center and Project HEAL note in this article that disordered eating behaviors (like purging) might occur, but not as frequently or severely as required for a formal eating disorder diagnosis, which follows the DSM-5 standards.
      • Impact on well-being: The article emphasizes that disordered eating can still have serious physical and emotional consequences, even if it doesn’t meet the threshold for an eating disorder. Both disordered eating and eating disorders can lead to emotional distress, but eating disorders often cause greater harm and life disruption.
      • Connection to eating disorders: It also explains that disordered eating behaviors, like extreme dieting or juice cleanses, can sometimes evolve into full-blown eating disorders if they escalate. (so keep an eye out on your silly coffee enemas…)
  • Here’s another I came across this week for TIME Magazine on “15 Things to Say When Someone Comments on Your Weight” from the lovely Angela Haupt.
    • Since we’ve all been there, I figured this one was apt. In the article, Haupt emphasizes the importance of not commenting on other people’s bodies, which duh. But it highlights the experiences of individuals like the beloved Tess Holliday and others who frequently receive unsolicited weight-related comments, sharing their strategies for addressing these situations.
      • Examples of what to say:
        1. “I prefer if we don’t discuss my body.”
        2. “That’s between me and my doctor.”

Outside of that, my intent is to pick up a bit where I left off. Except, well, I’m not really the same as where I left off. However, I’d like to write about the now and however that looks, which as of late is a little bit of this:

In 2024, I’m a van life, cat-loving, eating disorder, travel, and relationship PR lady & writer.

  • I’ve been ‘on the road’ in a van named Jolene since 2021 with my cat.
  • When not on the road, I’ve been living in and out of South America (where my Medellin lovers at?!)
  • I now enjoy writing essays and reflections on relationships, friendship, travel, badass ladies traveling solo, grief, and.. yes… eating disorders like anorexia, bulimia, orthorexia, drunkorexia, ARFID, and more.
  • I plan to publish personal pieces on eating disorder news/research, expert source commentary (many of my clients are in mental health or outdoor fields) tips on to be a full time freelancer, and as always … a lot of snippets about the bittersweetness of breaking up & starting over.

For example, this week I wrote about how egg freezing this summer actually had a surprising (positive) effect on my eating disorder.

I’d love to see you over on this other side of the internet.

As always, thanks for all the years. I cherish each of you.

Why I Hope I Always Regret My Eating Disorder

2011 vs 2018

I’m having a moment y’all.

I have something that I’m itching to write.

PRAISE BE!!!!!!!!!!!!! If I could figure out how to insert emoji prayer hands in this post, I would.

But instead, I’ll just use an excessive amount of exclamation points and hope that you choose to keep reading and forgive me.

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Thanksgiving Recovery Reminder: Diet Talk

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Do You Struggle With “Leftover Anorexia”?

Standard cheese, nature, computer pic

First things first – I think I’ve coined this whole “leftover anorexia” term and I’m feeling called to take a moment here to chuckle at my own irony. (Is it irony? Leftover? Like … leftovers. Like, food. Get it? Oh God, I know. Lame. Possibly insensitive.)

But, it’s another one of those eating disorder topics that seems to be difficult to acknowledge – though my guess is quite a few of us struggle with it.

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It’s True: You Probably Aren’t “Sick Enough” To Have An Eating Disorder

Yo, hold up. Put down the pitch forks, please.

I write headlines to get your attention.

This is one of them.

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5 Tips If You Wanna Start A Blog About Eating Disorders And Recovery

Comin’ off 10 days on the east coast – and booooooy did I miss my NYC life.

Sometimes, I don’t know why I left. Sometimes, I know exactly why. It’s a forever battle – so I’m forewarning you that you’re probably about to see an excessive amount of NYC pics.

ANYWHO.

Every week, I receive a message along the lines of “HAAAAALP. I’m so and so and I have an eating disorder. New to recovery, I’d like to start writing about it. I want to help people and feel like I need that community. How’d you do it?”

In pure honesty, I rarely answer these emails or DMs. Not because I don’t appreciate them – but because it’s quite difficult to pinpoint or understand exactly why my blog seems to resonate with people. If I do answer, I usually say something along the cheesedick, admittedly unhelpful line of “I was lucky – and I wrote with little regard to other people because I didn’t actually think other people would read it. That, in turn, made all the difference.”

Eyeroll. I know.

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The Biggest Bullshit We Tell Ourselves About Recovery

*Currently listening to: Michael Franti & Spearhead – Hey Hey Hey*

I have this tendency to write with a specific “flavor of the week” song on repeat (I try headphones so my partner doesn’t feel like he’s being sound-waterboarded lolz.)

Thought I’d start noting them in the case that you have interest in listening to my beats – or relate to the music.

This song’s got me in one of those evening shines.

“You gotta live for the one that you love you know
You gotta love for the life that you live you know”

Oh Michael Franti, you’re a babe. Going to see him June 1st at Red Rocks, which is the most magical music pavilion in all the USA land.

Anyway, I digress.

Last week, NEDA published a letter I wrote to kick off Eating Recovery Center’s #MyRecoveryLetter campaign for Eating Recovery Day. (More details on the campaign here…. also, how many times can I use the word ‘recovery’ in two sentences?)

It reminded me: sometimes, I think one of the only reasons I’ve remained so dedicated to writing is the accountability it forces me to maintain.

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My Eating Disorder Documentary Went Live This Morning!

 

This morning, a lil mini-documentary about my eating disorder, and recovery aired on Barcroft TV, and what a unique moment in life.

There’s always something to note (like LOLZ on all the “looking into the distance” shots or HEY check out some of the laughable YouTube comments), but I’ll keep it simple.

A reminder today that:

Eating disorders come in all shapes and sizes. My story is common because I am a white, small, cisgender female who grew up engulfed by “diet and beauty” culture, and the insecurity and expectation that it breeds. That is not to be ignored, but there are millions out there who do not have the same background. Men, women, ethnicities, nationalities, class. I am not the sole representation of what an eating disorder looks like, and will never pretend that I could be or am.

You will never be “sick enough.” You deserve help, no matter your circumstances, religion, shame, or weight.

I had a strong support system when I went to treatment. Most don’t (or they do) and it still means that sometimes they go back to rehab a few times before they get their shit straight. I am still working on what that means in my own life.

Recovery is ever-changing, ever-evolving. That’s why it’s flexible.

It is okay to live with an eating disorder. Recovery is accepting its presence in your life, not ignoring it as “fixed.”

Thank you to my best friend Kim Dyer for being in this, and Kristina Doelling for watching it from her apt in Brooklyn. Thank you to my parents Joanna Byers Hall for putting themselves out there, and being vulnerable to millions as parents of someone with an eating disorder. Thank you to The Renfrew Center for inclusion in the documentary, and taking time out of their lives to participate. Thank you to the camera crew and the producer for not making this salacious. Thank you Bradley’s parents for raising a beautiful child. His life has been the inspiration for so much of my recovery. Shout out to my partner for helping me get through that day, and waking up at 6am.

I am feeling many things, as one does when they see their sniffling face on film. Mostly, I am grateful for the life I have led – in all its ups and downs and side doors and mirrors.

This Is Why Your Eating Disorder Is Boring

My partner and I have been arguing lately.

Likely because we’re at that point in a relationship where our “quirky” personality traits have lost their lusty splendor, and humanized into regular, every day irritations –

I was clearing the table after dinner last night.

In my view (which is, of course, the only one), I’d been helpful. The loving, easygoing girlfriend.

“Shit, did you clean this pan with soap?” I hear from the far side of the kitchen.

The aforementioned monologue in mind, I gripped down on the white plates that now peculiarly resembled killer frisbees:

“Yes.”

An exasperated sigh. “Damn, okay. This one can’t be cleaned with soap or it ruins the bottom.”

He stared at it like a child grieving ice cream that just fell out of the cone.

I lost it in that beautiful way people sometimes do. Slowly, subtly, and then with a rip-roaring bang.

It’s always easy to consider ourselves even-tempered, until we’re not.

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This Is Why You Relapse

Heavy-hearted, I write today.

Truth is, this headline is declarative. I have no idea why you relapse.

As I sit here in a coffee shop – mulling through this post – I got a call from a close friend.

“Have you talked to X lately?”

“No… He dropped off a couple months ago and stopped answering me, so I assume he’s relapsed.”

“Linds, it’s bad. Just feel you should know before you hear from anyone else. His liver and kidneys are failing. Was in ICU for 13 days. Respiratory failure. Got out and got back on the painkillers. Sister found him slumped over a coffee table. He’s going to die if he doesn’t get help… and I don’t know if you want to reach back out – but we’re trying anything.”

I stared at my phone.

Stomach sinks. Not because it’s unexpected – but because it’s so expected and yet, no matter how much you can prepare for anything – you never know when the day will just come.

My ex might very likely die, which is two of my exes that I am waiting for that call.

“He’s gone.”

I received it once already – when my best friend fell out of a tree.

And I know it’s only a matter of time these days, before I get it again.

Being a messy person creates a messy life. And I have always held a love for messy people.

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